self-esteem

I'm old.

I'm ugly.

I'm inconsequential.

My face is fat.

My hair is clownish.

I have ugly clothes.

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We went to a hipster party a couple hours ago where I realized I'm disgusting and unsexy. I'm fish meat. I'm diseased. I'm old. Where are my girlfriends? Where am I?

I am old.

Saturday morning, I will be sitting in a cold bath writing semi-real suicide letters. I'm ugly? I'm ugly?! I'm ugly. Why is this hard to admit?