break my neck

i have another recurring nightmare sequence i'd like to share. i have it more often than the heavy cadaver one but it usually occurs during unusual sleeping times such as afternoon naps and morning sleep ins.

somebody is hunting me. sometimes i think it's a witch. not a typical witch. she looks to be my age but talks too much. she explains to me strange definitions of religious words. she tells me covenant means marc's shoes. eternal hell is the used hair brush on the sink. and my gray shirt means sacrifice. and since i'm wearing the gray shirt, that means she's hunting me to sacrifice me.

i can't hide so i figure the only way out is to kill myself. i look for a sharp knife and find it in the kitchen. wait. no. i can't kill myself like this. i decide to break my neck so it only looks like i've died and then the witch will leave me alone. i search for a place to lie until the witch finds me. every time i close my eyes i see the ways she will kill me. she peels my skin. suffocates me with her arm. sticks my head over a fire. she finds me and lies down next to my body. she tells me that i have to be tortured in order to wake up.

and she always says that last part! i swear to god. and every single time it makes no sense to me because i don't know i'm dreaming! but my mind does i guess so it throws a meta dream reference at me to make it even sicker. i always call my mom or marc after this one just because it's hard to leave this exhausting dream in my subconscious.